on changing natures

These americanifesto blogs have been significantly altered in the past few months; no longer does the author feel it necessary to vituperate and spew at situations he cannot change, or hurl barbs at politicians and luminaries he has never met. Instead, he is in the middle of a big change, a momentous shift in the fundamental nature of his life, the death of his old self and the birth of a new state of mind, a being in some ways different but in many ways wholly unlike the person he used to be, before this time.    

As he shifts, and receives new names and new skills and the power to harness mind and body, so he feels his blogs should shift, to reflect his evolving role upon this earth. May the ancestors be praised and the future generations cherished, the old walls torn down and a new hope built upon broad and solid ground. Huzzah, mahalo, and aho.

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on new name

Two days ago, this author sang his death song and perished during death meditation. He died as would a hero going home, as Chief Tecumseh likely urged those facing death to do. From Great Spirit, this author received new name, which he guards closely and cannot share with just any average bloke, so don't ask. Some things he lost, others he gained, including a piece of soul lost during a previous, unassisted and unguided Voyage Across the Terrible Threshold, that place where this life stops and the next begins. The old life is now behind him, and the first steps on his new journey are begun. Huzzah, mahalo, and aho.

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whom we honor

Today, we honor ten thousand dead children in Iraq; we honor five hundred murdered children in Pakistan; we honor scores of toddlers killed by American Hellfire missiles in Yemen, Afghanistan, and Somalia. Beyond that, we weep for every other person whose life has been tainted by mankind's continuing insistence on war and death-dealing, which means we honor every man, woman, and child who has every lived.

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salvation in screams

When frustration and self-doubt and inner voices get too loud, and it feels as if I were hoisting the problems of the world on my shoulders, it helps to scream as loud as I can into a folded towel, a banshee wailing in the stillness.

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miles for pizza

They walked a couple of miles each way, the two men from south India did, through a muggy Houston heat, carrying a single pizza from Domino's with them, which they happily scarfed down sitting at a table near the front door. Outside, in the pool, a water polo game was starting up, and the gay man washing everyone's dishes in the kitchen admitted to being a slut.

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no news is

Good news, so long as one watches more than just mainstream media, and gets one's news from places such as Al Jazeera, the Onion, and discarded chewing-gum wrappers.

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biohazard in Houston

In the last day, I met a dozen new people, was forced to move rooms due to a biohazard incident, completed my first yoga teacher training session, cried for at least fifteen minutes straight, got to know the Westheimer strip in Midtown pretty well, and bought three matching, light blue women's exercise shorts. If nothing else, change is in the air (and I don't mean the pennies I just threw at that pesky fucking rock pigeon).

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